Life Updates

     No specific event happened over the last week. Homecoming occurred, but I didn't love it. My mom and sister came to visit, which was great, but I had many other responsibilities on my mind. I let my anxiety ruin my weekend. Saturday, I was completely overwhelmed, and Sunday was an emotional battle. I had an exam the next day, many assignments due, and Public Relations Student Society of America (PRSSA) work to be done. However, I was not motivated and relaxed in bed all day. I took a nap, made food, and watched a movie. I needed this time for myself. Working constantly is draining. I struggle with sleeping through the night right now. I find myself waking up at least twice every night. I have tried Advil and melatonin, but nothing keeps me from waking up. So, the extra time in bed was essential for me to make it through the week.

    I’m experiencing some serious travel anxiety at the moment. Do not get me wrong; I am excited to go to California, but I do not want to do all of the traveling required to get there. Checking into flights, driving to Detroit, parking my car, finding an Uber, navigating the airport, going through security, and getting on the plane are all daunting to me. Deep down, my brain knows I will be OK; however, I have just been blocking it out. In fact, I'm still blocking it out.

    I had my interview for the Germany trip today and do not feel great about it. Way more people applied than anticipated, and since I am a junior, I do not think I will make the cut.

    Nick and I miss each other too. This is the longest period of time we have been apart since we started dating. I had no time this fall to travel to Rhode Island. In the last two years, I have been able to visit him at least once in the fall. This year, I have too much other travel already planned to miss any extra days of class. We are fine, but I miss him really badly, and there have been obstacles this semester that would not have been as hard for me if he were here for support.

    I cannot wait to go home this weekend. I sound like a broken record, but my weekends home are always the best. This Friday, my sister is getting asked to homecoming by her first boyfriend, and I get to see Millie! My excitement for this Friday is the only thing getting me through the week. Of course, since I am so excited to go home, the week has been dragging on. This Sunday, some extended family is meeting my immediate family for brunch at my favorite place in my hometown.